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My weekend in New Orleans   
05:35pm 27/02/2006
  So I had a great time this weekend, so many memories and even a few pictures.

Favorite Kiss. Courtesy of Trannie and Emily


Favorite Couple. Thanks Jenna and Brad


My "lesbian lover" mwhaha, We girls have to stick together sometimes
 
     

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In the end.   
03:38am 17/01/2006
  Life is such a complicated mass of emotions. I feel as though if I could just sort everything out my world would turn out ok, but every time I come to a knot I find that it's much more complex than it first seemed. I thought comming back to college would make everything better but for now it has just presented me with a new set of problems. I know that everything will work out one day and we will all be together and all be happy, and that's all I want. I just wish sometimes the road to that place weren't so long.
....I had a dream today and in my dream Alicia was alive and we were talking. And when I woke up I cried because I knew it would never be like that again. I dreamed about a ghost and while I did I lost reality. Now I wish I never knew what real was, then I could be a ghost too and never have to face myself.
....It rained tonight and I stood outside for a bit. I felt the cool rain as it softly fell on my hands and face. I felt it permiate my clothes and sink into my skin. I heard the soft and steady tapping as it hit the ground around me. I felt the breeze and saw the moon shine brightly through the clouds and knew that God was good. I felt alive, I felt happy, and I knew that it was real. I never want to be a ghost.
Both of these are true as true can be. I feel with all my heart these two things and yet they cannot be reconciled with each other. This is but a simple knot I think and yet I have no power with which to untangle it. How can I face the world if I can't face myself?
 
     

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Change of Plans   
06:50pm 07/01/2006
  So I was going to head back to Mississippi yesterday and spend some time with the guys before school started and whatnot but that plan didn't work out. I'll probably be here untill the 11'th if anybody wants to hang out. At the moment I'm kinda bored and ready to do anything.....hmmmm.... Oh and the other night Chris, Jon, and DJ stole me away from my house at 4 in the morning and I havent quite decided how I feel about that. Casanova is amazing, I encourage all of you guys to go see it. I'm hoping for some nice weather and the beach before I head back but it got crazy cold so who knows. And I want to get my tatoo finished really badly (one more bird is all it needs.  
     

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Random Thoughts   
12:16pm 15/12/2005
  1. I hate cops
I recently recieve a ticket for reckless driving and now must attend court. Yay for me.
2. Cronicles of Narnia made me want to shoot myself.
We got in free, left early and all felt quite ill after the disaster.
3. Going home isn't going home at all.
All my friends are scattered across the country at the moment and Pensacola holds very few of them. Whats
home without friends?
4. I rather like nutella.
Especially when I'm starving.
5. Warcraft and Halo two noise
Now I don't play halo or Warcraft but the boys both do and lastnight a I was falling asleep the noise
from those games kept popping into my head. Is it possible to be addicted from afar?
6. I hate sleeping alone.
Last night was the first night in a long time that I have slept alone in a bed, much less alone in my own
room. I rather dislike the feeling.
 
     

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Odd 6am thoughts   
06:17am 07/12/2005
  I really do wonder who I am these days. I used to be pretty confident in my personality, in who I really was, but lately I've been changing so much lately and I can't really determine in which way.


Tonight was really fun. We dyed Trannie's hair (dark brown) and played truth and dare.
The following is a list of dares completed.
1. Trannie licked my toes (after much furious fighting on my part)
2. Emily drank out of the toilet.
3. Moose ate a can of mustard.
4. Trannie streaked around the block.
5. Mary licked the toilet.
6. I licked trainnies nipple (really odd)
7. Moose played "fire in the hole" at mcdonalds. (this involves the ordering of a large coke via the drive in, and the throwing of the coke back into the window after yelling "fire in the hole".
8. Larry ate lint out of the vacccuume cleaner.
9. I ate a lovely mixture of mayo and apple jelly...yummy

Tomorrow we are redying Trannies hair (darker again) and possibly driving to Georgia to steal the "welcome to Georgia" sign.
College is amusing. Emily and I discussed the origines of the "merr"...love having a pensacola buddy here.
We also moved into the new house today. Its really cool. Its one of those old, historic houses. My room is the first on the left but sarah is sleeping in there tonight so I'll probably sleep with Trannie and Reid again tonight. I don't mind, its nice to have people close, comforting in one of those friendly ways.
Im so thankfull I met these people. This summer I hope you all will too as I intend to bring them up for at least a month.
The doors in this house scare me. Not all of them mind you, just the closet doors. I shall explain in further detai:

Plain white doors, the paint slightly peeling, hang ill-fittingly in their frames. They are smallish doors, not ment to be walked through by any human being, with black cracks lining all sides of them. The cracks reveal a darkness too deep to be penetrated by the weak light let off by a chandelier hanging in the middle of the room. They leave an odd feeling in you, as if, should you open the door, some ancient evil will be let out. Some black and creaping darkness, in there, waiting for you. Or me.
 
     

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Life in general   
02:11am 04/12/2005
 

This shall be a very long post.

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Amazing   
12:46am 22/11/2005
  Going home on Tuesday (tomorrow) I'm really excited about it. So you guys better come see me!  
     

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meh   
01:14am 19/10/2005
  I'm still around  
     

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hurricane madness   
12:53pm 29/08/2005
  Just when I thought I escaped hurricanes...its headed strait for Jackson with the bad side on Pensacola...Ive narrowed it down to God hates either Me, Justin or Jacob.  
     

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these sheets dont feel like home   
01:18am 23/08/2005
  Well I made it to MC...classes start on wed...i dont know how i feel about the place  
     

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too funny at 2am   
02:46am 16/08/2005
  http://spaces.msn.com/members/birrebell/blog/cns!1pDh7Z6ZakyfWkWe1h3uuCBA!240  
     

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12:00am 14/08/2005
  =8....................................................................................looked at dorm stuff today again....at target...i was just kinda wandering, yea i dono  
     

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dang sneaked up on me   
02:56pm 08/08/2005
  wow....college in 11 days...  
     

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05:15pm 03/08/2005
  Well, im out of town (ive forgotten where exactly) but I should be back around Friday, and oh Georgia I'm looking up airline tickets for us to go to Baton Rouge soon. (so get back to me on that idea)  
     

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Up and Down   
06:39pm 24/07/2005
  My car broke down today....:(  
     

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right....dont think i believe them   
03:22am 24/07/2005
 


You Have A Type A- Personality



A-





You are one of the most balanced people around
Motivated and focused, you are good at getting what you want
You rule at success, but success doesn't rule you.

When it's playtime, you really know how to kick back
Whether it's hanging out with friends or doing something you love!
You live life to the fullest - encorporating the best of both worlds


 
     

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Good day   
05:29pm 23/07/2005
  I got a car (mini cooper) and a cell phone today...give me a call (748-1723)  
     

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Whoo   
10:20pm 17/07/2005
  I got a tattoo today...its a sparrow, maybe I'll post pics tomorrow  
     

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02:59pm 15/07/2005
  I updated, but it didnt update...just to let you know...it was a good one too  
     

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Home   
04:05pm 14/06/2005
  Heather came home the other day. We have just been hanging out and going to the beach and whatnot. I might actually have some sort of tan. I am convinced that I must look like I am from Florida before I go to college.  
     

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